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Post by mikhail ivanov on May 5, 2015 10:56:28 GMT
 ALL THOSE MOMENTS will be lost in time like tears in rain Soft, tinted light poured from the west, warming the tiled roofs and cobblestone streets of Twilight Town. this eternal evening kept anyone from distinguishing between day and night, but now, at the moment, the city was quiet. peaceful. the curtains on the houses were drawn: merchants had packed away their booths and pulled their shutters to. a few scattered crowds trickled through the main square. but apart from the stragglers and wanderers, most of the city was asleep. walking at a brisk pace, mikhail made his way through a network of alleyways. this was a simple scouting mission. nothing more. heartless didn't invade this city as often as they did Traverse Town: chances were, nothing exciting would happen on this trip. Still. Mikhail had to be thorough. Turning onto a broad lane, Mikhail glanced to his right, and caught sight of something out of the corner of his eye. The street wasn't empty, after all. The keyblader paused to take a closer look. Someone stood not five doors away. Mikhail froze. The shock of recognition, the realization, pierced him like a blade. And he stood as if bolted to the ground. His proud stance. Straight black hair. The curl of his fingers at rest. The slope of his shoulders. Mikhail would know that person anywhere. He took one step forward, eyes widening in disbelief. It was Axyl. It was his brother. Mikahil knew when he started on his path to becoming a keyblader that the chances of finding his brother were slim. All along, he had simply fought to destroy the Heartless: there was no way to free Axyl but to utterly destroy the dark creatures who had torn him apart. Yet, here he was. At long last, after so many years, came the opportunity he had hardly dared to hope for. Mikhail raced down the street, footsteps echoing through the empty space. Eyes like amethysts. Beaming. Openly, just this once, smiling like a child. those who lost their hearts lost their memories. everyone knew it. mikhail knew it. he knew. but somehow, that didn't seem real... Axyl would remember him. maybe not at first...but his brother would remember. All of Mikhail's calmness, his detached and cynical reasoning and second-guessing, disappeared. "Axyl!" Mikhail slid to a stop, restraining himself from embracing his brother: it took a lot, waiting with his hands half-raised, almost trembling. Nagi had once asked him "was he happy?" and the answer had been no. no. but for the first time in five years, mikhail was truly happy. ALYXX### drama bleh bleh. drama bleh. not the best post. MADE BY VEL OF GS |
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Post by ALYXX on May 5, 2015 20:30:05 GMT
I WALK A LONELY ROAD  ▼ » There was nothing that could have bothered Alyxx more then these Flashbacks that continued to take over his mind's eye every time He was away from the World that Never Was. This would have to be the only thing that truly forced him to feel anything. This time, this time it was a string of them. One after the other. Right afterward he heard what seemed like a familiar step of the foot. There was no reaction from him. No. He heard the other, but this was something that would have to be dealt with delicacy. There was a familiar feeling, a familiar air. He could remember the feeling of fear. The tightness of his chest. Twisting of his stomach. This was something important that his own body could remember almost perfectly. "Axyl!"Axyl? That... That was... "Axyl! No!" Axyl turned in the direction of the voice but there was no one there to call out to him. "Axyl get out of there!" There were way too many of the little black shadows for him to get free. He had already accepted his fate to the heartless. He knew his heart was too dark to escape. He knew it was only an inevitable amount of time. Axyl! Finally he made eye contact with the voice after taking out another bunch of the shadows. There was nothing he could do to free himself. But if there was everything he could do to safe this person, this person that he seemed to care about oh so much, he would.
"... get back! Now! Run! Run as fast as you can and don't look back!" and with that, all he could remember was his world turning black as the Heartless piled themselves on top of him, covering his view of the sky. He was suddenly brought back to reality as the voice now stood before him. There was no full reaction on Alyxx's part. No overly done reaction of course. He opened his blank eyes and trained them onto the newcomer expertly, knowing exactly where he was standing and, somehow, where his eyes would be. "Axyl?" He asked the boy calmly. Not being able to see him directly, Alyxx wasn't quite sure if it was the same boy from his constant flashbacks, but his voice was certainly familiar. Axyl was... that was his former name wasn't it? The one he wore before becoming a nobody. He debated seriously. Should he play dumb? Or should he gain more information through playing smart? Well, first things first. He didn't even know this person's name. He knew that he should. He continued to dream about him, but his flash backs continued to convieniently leave out the boy's name. He was several years older then what he "remembered." But it was certainly the boy from possibly five years ago. Why had his memories been slow? He still hadn't gained his full memory back from the transfer. Most of the org members that he'd been with for five years now had most of their memories back. His were being riddlrous and fleeting. "My name is Alyxx." He said simply, studying the air and vibrations brought on through the sounds around them. |
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Post by mikhail ivanov on May 6, 2015 7:59:24 GMT
ALL THOSE MOMENTS will be lost in time like tears in rain axyl turned and faced him. slowly, in the silence that followed, mikhail's smile faded. axyl's expression was empty. devoid of any feeling. of any recognition. that bright hope, clear and pure as sunlight, started to dim little by little as the seconds ticked by. an image of axyl's return after years of keyblade training flashed through mikhail's mind: axyl had never been demonstrative, but still. it was always clear to mikhail that axyl was happy to see him when they met. he couldn't have told you what he was expecting when he rushed to greet his brother. but it wasn't this. it would be alright... the memories would come back. for once, mikhail shut out the plain truth to prop up an intangible daydream. "my name is alyxx."a heavy, sinking feeling filled the pit of mikhail's stomach. his hands dropped to his sides. "alyxx..." the keyblader took an unconcious step forward. "you really don't remember... not even your name.... axyl, it's me. mikhail. your brother." his tone became strained, almost pleading. "we grew up together... in radiant gardens.... we said goodbye, the day you left for your apprenticeship... i was there the day the Heartless -" mikhail swallowed. cut the sentence off short. somehow, he couldn't say it. not now. this alien reaction - the coldness and harsh indifference of it - cut deep. he will remember.MADE BY VEL OF GS |
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Post by ALYXX on May 6, 2015 23:26:41 GMT
I WALK A LONELY ROAD ▼ » Mikhail. Mikhail. Now he had a name that belonged to the face that continued to haunt his dreams. This was the one that continued to get in the way of his plans. From the boy's reaction, it was possible that the two of them were quite close to one another. How irritating. Now he had to babysit probably. This kid wasn't a Heartless or a Nobody, but he did have a light to him. If it was known that Axyl was a Keyblader, and this kid was his own brother, then it had to be assumed that he was a Keyblader as well. At the mention of the Heartless Alyxx flinched and had another flashback. Of the same moment, but this one was much quicker then the last. Dammit... I need to get rid of this kid. And he knew just the way to do it. "Oooh." He said then his expression softened into a sad smile. "I'm sorry... You're looking for Axyl. That was the me when I had a heart. Axyl..."Let him down slowly. Let him down slowly. Why was he hesitating? Why did he have this painful feeling in his chest. This must have been a bodily reaction for Axyl whenever he had to speak something he didn't want to say out right. Why was this so difficult for him? "The Axyl that your looking for is not here." "Shut up Axyl! I know you're there! Come out and show yourself!"
There was an amused laugh that came from the speaker. But there was no other response for at least three minutes. That is until he was able to sneak up on the other and say "BOO!" The other boy jumped and screamed but then hit him in the arm when he realized who it actually was.
"Stop playing games Axyl. ...Looking for us. He won't be happy if we get back late. Besides, its training tonight, and you know how he is about us getting there on time and ready to go." Alyxx flinched again and brought his hand to his forehead in slight pain. He wanted the flashbacks to stop. But how was he to do that? He? Who was this other person that Young Mikhail spoke of? He didn't sound like a very nice person for them to be involved with. |
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Post by mikhail ivanov on May 8, 2015 7:53:09 GMT
ALL THOSE MOMENTS will be lost in time like tears in rain "Oooh." Mikhail waited, watching his brothers' expression change from a blank stare to a sad smile. "I'm sorry... You're looking for Axyl. That was the me when I had a heart. Axyl..."No. It wasn't possible... There had never been much proof, never been any concrete evidence to support this idea, but Mikhail had always assumed that - even without emotions - Axyls' Nobody would reflect some element of his true personality. Mikhail had never imagined that his brother would knowingly reject his former self. His whole self. Unless... unless... "The Axyl that you're looking for is not here."The Nobody might as well have twisted a knife between the boy's ribs. Everyone fighting this long war against the Heartless had seen the ruin it left in its' wake. Everyone knew the nightmares it spawned. Mikhail had felt the weight of it. But this... Nothing compared to this. For years, Mikhail had hoped for this meeting, despite long odds and grim improbability. Never once had he doubted that, essentially, Axyl would be the same person he had always been. His brother. Mikhail watched as Alyxx flinched, and put his hand to his forehead. Was he in pain? Even now, in the midst of his confusion and dismay, Mikhail wanted to ask a question, to see if he was okay. Gritting his teeth, Mikhail stared at those empty, emotionless eyes. Empty eyes... Suddenly, the truth sank in. He lost his sight. He can't even see me. "That's not true... you are Axyl. You have his memories. His mind. If you wait... if you give us time... you will have your heart again. Just.... let me help you remember."
Mikhail clutched those crumbling hopes tightly. For once, night was falling in Twlight Town. MADE BY VEL OF GS |
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Post by ALYXX on May 8, 2015 8:38:36 GMT
I WALK A LONELY ROAD ▼ » He heard Mikhail grit his teeth. The kid was frustrated? That was a feeling that went with the gritting and gnashing of teeth right? Frustration? He wondered what the kid was truly feeling at that moment in time. On the other hand he really didn't care what the kid was feeling. He couldn't feel anyway. If his head hadn't been pounding at the moment, he might have asked, but he didn't. "That's not true... you are Axyl. You have his memories. His mind. If you wait... if you give us time... you will have your heart again. Just.... let me help you remember." Alyxx was about to answer him, he even opened his mouth to do so but it happened again... Mikhail, Get back! Get back Now! Run! Run as fast as you can and don't look back!"
Black, black all around and one more thing before I go. I'm sorry. I'm so very sorry I wasn't a better brother Mikhail. I'm so very sorry. Please please... forgive this blackened heart of mine. Snapping back to reality he realized two things. One, he had stumbled back and was now standing against the wall for support. Two, his cheeks, they were wet, and suddenly he couldn't stop the tears from leaving his body, falling down his face and dripping off his chin. They feel like a waterfall. "Wha... Whats going on?" He asked seeming to be in a panic. But he didn't feel it. He felt none of this. Or if he did he didn't understand it. The tears kept falling. His chest and head kept hurting. "Why am I doing this? What is happening? How do I make it stop?!" He couldn't stop the tears. Why was this happening? |
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Post by mikhail ivanov on May 8, 2015 9:23:34 GMT
ALL THOSE MOMENTS will be lost in time like tears in rain "Axyl!" What happened? Alyxx had suddenly stumbled backwards, hitting a wall and leaning against it to stay on his feet. Remembering the way Alyxx had flinched, and seemed to be in pain, Mikhail hurried forward. Tears glistened on the Nobody's face, pouring down uncontrollably. The suddenness and intensity of the outburst made it all the more unnerving. "Axyl... are you in pain? What -" "Wha... Whats going on? Why am I doing this? What is happening? How do I make it stop?!" Panic. Alyxx's tears, his intonations, his body language: it all reflected intense distress. But he couldn't be panicking. He couldn't feel.
None of that mattered to Mikhail as he put his hands on his brothers' shoulders. "You're going to be fine... just take a deep breath. Let it out slowly..." For a while he simply talked to Alyxx in a soothing tone, attempting to stem this violent stream of (apparent) emotion. As he tried to help his brother, Mikhail's expression softened. Dealing with the situation had triggered a strange calm in his own mind. For the moment, at least, his own troubles were pushed into some far corner of his mind. "Try to relax. Are you in pain?" MADE BY VEL OF GS |
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Post by ALYXX on May 9, 2015 9:37:49 GMT
I WALK A LONELY ROAD ▼ » That voice, that soothing voice. All he did was want to listen to it. That voice was so comforting. He couldn't fight it though. The panic. The sobbing, the shaking that was coming from his body. It wasn't too bad, but it was still making Alyxx very very confused. He was a nobody, he shouldn't be crying. "Don't be stupid Mikhail."
"Dad! That wasn't Mikki's fault. It was my idea. I got him into this mess! So back off."
"Axyl!"
"Shh..."
Standing in front of father was the hardest thing i'd ever done when we were little Mikki... I just couldn't let him manipulate you into his world as badly as he did with me.
He stared at me for a long few seconds after that. I stood in defiance as he did. "Meet me for extra lessons afterward Axyl."
They were never painful. At least not physically. To teach me the "lessons of life" he would always have me do something difficult. Verbally sabotage deals, or try to make deals without ruining them. Most of the time he set me up to fail. But that was why I wanted you out of the picture. I didn't want you to have to see that side of father. Never. He screamed then, shoving the hands away that were offered to him and stumbling away from the wall. This was all HIS fault. These strange Emotions appearing out of nowhere. The flashbacks that continued to haunt his waking hours and his sleeping dreams. "Get back! This... This is all your fault!" With that Alyxx summoned his twin tiger swords and pointed one of them in Mikhail's direction, trying his best to keep the boy back. "Don't come any closer! How do you make these flashbacks stop? How are you doing this to me? I want it to stop! I don't WANT these memories!" He yelled, jerking one of his hooked blades at him. "Tell me how to make them stop!" |
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Post by mikhail ivanov on May 9, 2015 10:21:38 GMT
ALL THOSE MOMENTS will be lost in time like tears in rain Axyl screamed, screamed and knocked his hands away. Drawing back, eyes wide with shock, Mikhail pulled his shoulders up, his hands held in front of him. "Get back! This... This is all your fault!" The words cut into him like glass. Mikhail stood, pale and shaking, as the clean sound of scraping metal crawled up his spine. It wasn't his fault... none of this. It wasn't his fault. He was to blame for her demise, for her destruction. But not Axyl. Not his brother. The hooked tip of a blade trembled not far from Mikhail's chest. "Don't come any closer! How do you make these flashbacks stop? How are you doing this to me? I want it to stop! I don't WANT these memories! Tell me how to make them stop!""I..." Mikhail drew in shuddering breaths, his voice small. Broken. " I don't know... I'm sorry..."I'm sorry for everything. Maybe if I had waited for you... begged... fought next to you... none of this would have happened. Eyes wide and scared, Mikhail waited, afraid of what Axyl - no, Alyxx - might do. MADE BY VEL OF GS |
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Post by ALYXX on May 9, 2015 20:58:28 GMT
I WALK A LONELY ROAD ▼ » "I don't know... I'm sorry..." The boy was shaking. He could feel the vibrations in the air. His tears wouldn't stop falling. Why why why? Why was his body acting like this? It wouldn't move, it wouldn't allow him any closer to Mikhail. This boy... This boy must be cursed. But that was absurd. Perhaps... what if... he, himself was cursed? And this boy was the trigger? "MIKHAIL!" Alyxx dropped his weapons to the ground and held his hands to his head. He needed to stop and think. From any and all experience he could remember of emotions, what emotion was this? What were the words being said in his flashbacks? What emotion was his body feeling so intensely. "Guilt..." He muttered, perhaps just loud enough for Mikhail to hear it himself. "This... This is guilt. Why do I feel guilty?" Normally Alyxx wasn't a verbal processor. But there was so much going on in his head and body right now that he couldn't process correctly. It was connected to his last known memory. The one of the heartless taking him over. Why was he dealing with the repercussions of That night. The night the heartless took his heart. This memory more then any haunted him. His body... His body must have remembered it. Body's had memories too right? "I'm sorry..." He muttered, he didn't really know why, and fell to the ground, on his hands and knees, utterly defeated by the oddness of the intense emotions. Even his body didn't feel used to it. "I'm sorry... Mikki..." |
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Post by mikhail ivanov on May 10, 2015 6:53:37 GMT
ALL THOSE MOMENTS will be lost in time like tears in rain Ringing and clattering, the two swords landed on the ground. Alyxx just stood there, pressing his hands against his head as if in pain. "Guilt..."
The words were barely audible, but Mikhail heard them. " This... This is guilt. Why do I feel guilty?" Feel? Impossible... Nobodies couldn't feel. Mikhail watched without speaking, still trembling. "I'm sorry..." Mikhail simply stood there as Alyxx collapsed onto his hands and knees. He was sorry? Then... he must still remember who Mikhail was. Some part of him knew. "I'm sorry... Mikki...."Mikhail felt his eyes sting with tears. Moving smoothly, he knelt down, placing one knee between the two, sharp blades. Reaching out, he embraced Alyxx, resting his chin on the Nobodies' shoulder, closing his eyes. Five years. Five years of regret and growing despair had finally led to some kind of resolution (incomplete as it was). Even amidst the fog of confusion and pain, Mikhail felt a sense of relief. Whatever happened.... he had seen Axyl again. He knew that Axyl could be found. Maybe he could be saved... Supressing a new, poisonous fear growing in the back of his mind, Mikhail let himself relax. Right now... he just wanted Axyl to be alright. MADE BY VEL OF GS |
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Post by ALYXX on May 12, 2015 3:20:37 GMT
{  } It was strange... The sudden calm that washed over him amidst the tears and constant rise and fall of his shoulders, it suddenly didn't bother him. Suddenly he just let it happen. Apparently his body wasn't going to stop till it was done and getting frustrated and panicked was only making it worse. So he stopped fighting it. Allowing his world to be turned up side down. Alyxx really wasn't one to enjoy change. In fact, he really hated change. It was one thing that caused him to panic. This... this was a lack of complete and total control. This was why he had been panicking before. And then the boy wrapped his arms around him. Hugging him. He flinched at first, both himself and his body being very uncertain of the movement, but then he just let it happen, even leaning into the hug, trying desperately to just let it go. He could feel his body shaking from the strain and tension that he had been putting onto it. "No more..." He muttered. "I don't like this... Mikki... Why... Why is this happening?"MADE BY VEL OF GS |
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Post by mikhail ivanov on May 12, 2015 4:32:05 GMT
ALL THOSE MOMENTS will be lost in time like tears in rain Alyxx flinched. Mikhail could feel the tension in his body. For a minute, the boy braced himself for a shove, a blow. Then, his brother relaxed. "No more.... I don't like this... Mikki... Why.... Why is this happening?"
Silence. A gust of wind swept down the street, stirring up dust in the gutters. For a momet, no one spoke. Mikhail kept his eyes closed, relief flooding through him. Axyl... More and more seemed to be coming back to him. He was calling Mikhail by the name he used when they were kids, that nickname only he was allowed to get away with. "Your memories are coming back... don't worry... it'll get easier..."Mikhail pulled away, placing his hands on Axyl's shoulders. "Come on... let's go." Standing up, he offered his hand. "I can take you to the Land of Departure. That's.. where I live now." ALYXX### yeah.... about that. MADE BY VEL OF GS |
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Post by ALYXX on Jun 5, 2015 6:56:55 GMT
{  } At the mention of the Land of Departure Alyxx stiffened and pulled away from Mikhail. The tears that were falling down his face were suppressed and the moment passed. No. That would not happen, no matter how much Mikhail wanted it to. Alyxx would not go to the Land of Departure with him. This body may have belonged to the elder brother of this boy, but he was no longer in control of this body. Alyxx was, starting now. There was no way that Alyxx would let this... Axyl back into his mind. So he got his last feelings out a bit late. Too bad, Axyl was dead, this kid had to accept that now. He was Alyxx and just because Alyxx looked like Axyl, didn't mean he was Axyl. He pulled himself away from Mikhail, standing back up from the crouched position he had put himself into. This was over. He was done with this meeting, with a wipe over his face he erased the tears that had once been falling so uncontrollable. "Sorry boy, Axyl is dead. He won't be coming back." And with that he spun on his heels and vanished into a black swirling portal that appeared behind him. This meeting was over. mikhail ivanov | Notes: Sorry for taking so long. This can either be the last post or you can make one more with Mikhail's reaction. Thanks for being patient with me. MADE BY VEL OF GS |
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